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| BY DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE
Love of mine some day you will die,
But I'll be close behind.
I'll follow you into the dark.
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white;
Just our hands clasped so tight,
Waiting for the hint of a spark.
If heaven and hell decide,
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs:
If there's no one beside you,
When your soul embarks;
Then I'll follow you into the dark.
In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule,
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black,
And I held my tongue as she told me,
"Son, fear is the heart of love."
So I never went back.
If heaven and hell decide,
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs:
If there's no one beside you,
When your soul embarks;
Then I'll follow you into the dark.
You and me have seen everything to see;
From Bangkok to Calgary.
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down;
The time for sleep is now.
It's nothing to cry about,
'Cause we'll hold each other soon.
The blackest of rooms.
If heaven and hell decide,
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs:
If there's no one beside you,
When your soul embarks;
Then I'll follow you into the dark.
Then I'll follow you into the dark.
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| there's been some change, i think. idk. so tomorrow i start my first day of college. eek! scary thought. i found out where i have to go and what time and everything. im kind of nervous, but i know that i can't wait as well. i'll finally have something to do. i can't wait for school either. i hope junior year is better than last year. not that tenth grade was bad, just that, ive realized a whole lot of things this summer from thinking so much.
oh yes, i went to georgia for like, 3 days. it was ok there. except for the constant "i'll see you when you move here" and all those dumb sex jokes between my parents and the other people. grr...it annoyed the shit out of me. i was getting sick of it. we went to see houses there also, and while there i just stayed quiet. because i knew that if i spoke, i would burst into tears. it was soo nice and so much better than new york, what i mean is. it was much cleaner and organized.and much cheaper to buy a large house. it really convinces my parents. and its convinced my brother. so now, they just need to convince me, and we just have to start packing and move. my parents already have a house they are interested in. this house where some lady that designs stuff for anne klein lives. according to them, its beautiful. idk. im not ready to leave all my memories, hopes, dreams, and loved ones here in new york. its just a little too much for me to handle.
um. im gonna be getting my glasses soon. i sent in the frames today. yay!
what else? oh yea. my parents don't want me to be friends with a certain person. and it sucks. but whatever. i'll make my own decisions. and if they are bad, then i guess i'll just regret it later. it sucks that they have to feel that way about that friend, because we only just started being friends again. see how much one picture can change their point of view on a person?? at least they still like a certain other person, who just so happens to have done something that has won most of my parents respect back. [very courageous of you, i can't believe you actually did that! jesus, i would have walked away.]
other than that, life is pretty much ok. school is starting veryyy soon. and i can't wait because it will be a fresh new start and i'll be using all this brand new stuff. i love it! =]
outties. bye. 
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| ...FOR SUNDAY!!!! OMG...iTS GONNA BE SOOO MUCH FUN.
ALEES PARTiES ARE iNFAMOUS =]
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| EVEN NOTiCE AS i STAND iN THE BACKGROUND?? i GUESS YOU DON'T. AND THAT SUCKS, BECAUSE i HAVE SO MANY FEELiNGS FOR YOU, BUT YOU FAiL TO NOTiCE. SOMETiMES, i WiSH YOU KNEW. OTHER TiMES, i WiSH i DiDNT FEEL THiS WAY, BECAUSE i FEEL LiKE iM FALLiNG iNTO HEARTBREAK. i FEEL AS THOUGH iLL BE CRUSHED BY A CRUSH ONCE AGAiN.
FOR SOMEONE WHO WANTS TO BE iN LOVE SO BADLY, i HAVENT FOUND ANYTHiNG YET. i HAVENT BEEN iN A RELATiONSHiP. AND i WANT TO KNOW HOW iT iS TO BE iN LOVE, NOT JUST iN LiKE.
WiLL THERE EVER BE HOPE FOR ME?? i FEEL LiKE THERE iSNT. iM TiRED OF BEiNG JEALOUS, HOPELESS, LONELY. i FEEL LiKE A WORTHLESS PiECE OF SHiT. UGH...
i SHALL GO BE EMO ON MYSPACE. BYE. =/
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| UMM...EMO SELF iS GONE AGAiN. i THiNK i NEED SCHOOL TO BE STABLE WiTH WHO i AM. i THiNK i NEED TO GO BACK REALLY BAD. i FEEL SO STUPiD DURiNG THE SUMMER. i GET SO LiKE, WEiRD. LiKE, EVEN READiNG BECOMES HARD. iDK. MAYBE iTS JUST ME??
ANYWAYS, 23 MORE DAYS UNTiL SCHOOL. WOOHOO! FiNALLY! iM GONNA BE OUT BECAUSE THiS iS BORiNG ME. SEE YAAAA =]
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